Sunday, October 30, 2011

Home Sweet Home in the Slow Lane

As a rare October snowstorm raged outside this weekend, I was busy with my dusting cloth and steam cleaner inside.

Not long ago, I came home with a load of groceries and couldn't seem to make room to put them away. The table was covered with papers and the pantry was a hodgepodge jumble of miscellaneous stuff. Standing there with a roll of paper towel in each hand and no where to go with it, I realized the jumble wasn't just confined to the pantry.

There was a "like new" hamster cage and half a bag of kibble under the microwave in my kitchen. Next to it was a card board box full of painting rollers and old brushes.

A herd of vacuum cleaners with various dysfunctions had taken over a corner of my living room.

Three coffee pots of various ilks and numerous industrial sized stock pots were sucking up all the space in the back of the pantry.

I had enough canned goods and dry pasta stockpiled to feed our whole cul-de-sac for three months, maybe longer.

Was it any wonder I couldn't find a place to put the groceries? Then and there I decided it was time to get things under control once again.

I started with shredding this mountain of old documents:

The shredding took me two consecutive days and almost cost me my sanity, but I learned a valuable lesson about letting papers accumulate.

This weekend my project was to start pulling stuff out of the pantry and ruthlessly getting rid of whatever we didn't really need. I packed up two large boxes of non-perishables for the food pantry, gave away the hamster habitat and some of the small kitchen implements, and just plain threw out anything that was expired or missing a part.

For awhile, I admit, things looked like this:


But it was worth it because now, it looks like this:


After a weekend spent generally cleaning and tidying, the rest of the house is looking spruce, too:



Most of our furniture is a hand-me-down, a garage sale find or a freecycle score. I even found the red dresser in my kitchen by the side of the road! I realize HGTV might not be impressed (the slow lane lifestyle is generally the antithesis of all they stand for, after all). But small and unremarkable as it is, our apartment is cozy and comfortable and we like it. Best of all, now it is neat and tidy, too.

Monday, October 24, 2011

My Mom is a Smasher

My mom is a Smasher. Lest you get the wrong idea and think this means she needs anger management, let me clarify that a Smasher is someone who has published an e-book using Smashwords.com. She currently has three books available via Smashwords, Point and Shoot and Deep Blue Murder, both Edie Malone mysteries, as well as another mystery called Dangerous Inheritance.

As you can imagine, I am extremely proud of her and so is the rest of the family. My son was so excited about the first book he said he can't wait to get a tattoo of the cover on his arm. That wasn't exactly the reaction she was hoping for, I don't think, but coming from a teenage boy that is high praise indeed.

My mom's romance with the mystery genre is legendary in our family. When we were growing up she could often be found absently stirring a pot on the stove with one hand, while reading a mystery held in the other. My dad sometimes joked he was afraid she might get distracted from the recipe she was making and accidentally add in some hemlock or other poison out of her murder mystery.

My mom gets her love of murder mysteries from her own mother, who was also an avid reader and a particular fan of mysteries. But I think she gets her storytelling gene from my Grandfather, who was a natural born storyteller. A gregarious Irishman with a sly sense of humor and the gift of the gab, he often regaled us grand kids with stories of the many exploits he and his 11 siblings got up to in Belfast just after the turn of the last century. He also made up ghost stories to tell us, which he knew were our favorites.

Grandpa had a lot of imagination, which he applied liberally to more than just his storytelling. When a wrong number called, he would pretend he was the intended recipient of the call and ad lib his way through a long conversation. He rented U-hauls, cancelled orders for sewing machines, re-directed pizzas and even convinced a young lady to break up with her boyfriend, telling her she was better off without him anyway because he was unreliable and she deserved better. He also had an unfortunate penchant for trying to marry my sister or I off to random people on the street, usually launching into a long list of our made-up attributes and a fictitious dowry. He especially liked trying to marry us off to cops, although he did once try to pawn one of us off on an organ grinder at a street fair in exchange for a monkey.

I'm digressing - my grandfather's exploits could be a whole blog unto themselves - but suffice it to say that as I read my mom's books I see elements of my grandparents and other relatives coming alive in her characters.

I'm traveling for work most of the week, but I have packed my Nook so at least I know I'll get to enjoy a good read. If you want to join me clicking on the caption under the cover of Deep Blue Murder will take you to her page on Smashwords, or just visit Smashwords.com and type in "Shirley E. Watson."

Visit Smashwords.com to download this or any other of my mom's mysteries

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Magic and Mystery in the Sky Above Us

When I got in my car to come to work this morning I couldn't help but notice the dramatic cloudscape overhead. It rained last night, but this morning the sun decided to make a bold appearance. The clouds were piled up in puffy white heaps, tinged with gray here and there with the dregs of left-over rain, scudding briskly across the sky. Both the clouds and the yellow leaves on the trees almost seemed to glow as the morning sun shone through them.

Sometimes I look at the sky and marvel at all that goes on up there. Sunsets drenched in color. Massive cloud continents drifting by. Jets streaking across the sky towards some unknown destination. The night sky dazzles, too, with the luminous bulk of the moon and the bright glimmer of satellites. The carpet of stars beyond contains entire galaxies. It is all tantalizingly close, yet impossibly far away.

Sometimes I just stop what I'm doing and gaze at it, amazed by this constant quiet reminder of just how little we know about what we earthlings are really all about. It really is mind blowing if you stop to think about it. We are just tiny creatures clinging to a rock shooting through the universe. None of us knows how the universe was created, other than a big bang had something to do with it. What caused the big bang? What was it that blew up in the first place? Was it part of something bigger? What lies beyond the universe? For all we know, we could be amoeba traveling through the digestive track of some giant creature the likes of which we can't even imagine.

Yet as amazing and mysterious as the sky is, most of us pass our days hardly noticing it. We go about our self-important business, content with the myth that we are masters of our lives and our world, jockeying for position with one another as if any of it makes a difference in the larger context when seen from space.

When I look up at the sky it reinforces my sense of mystery and wonder. Magic seems possible - maybe even plausible - considering how little we really know about ourselves and this planet we call home. Is it really any wonder my Celtic fore bearers were so infatuated by the moon?

Van Gogh's starry night makes me think he saw magic in the sky, too.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Back on the horse once more

Yesterday I got on the scale and realized that at this moment I weigh the same as I did when I was 9 months pregnant. Eek!

I didn't used to be this fat. In fact, about 18 months ago I was in pretty decent shape for my stage in life. When I look at pictures from then it makes me feel pretty darn bad about where I am now. What makes it even worse is I know that I did it to myself.

For most of my life I never had to think much about weight. I was never super-skinny, but I wasn't ever fat, either. It was only in the last five years, around the time I turned 40, that I realized the battle of the bulge had finally found me. I joined Weight Watchers Online and within a few months I had painlessly pared my weight back down to where I wanted to be. 

So what happened? How did I suddenly go from fit and trim to ballooning up to my heaviest adult weight ever? These are the questions I needed to ask myself if I was going to get serious about taking the weight off again.

Logistics had a lot to do with it. The demands on my schedule kept increasing, which slowly sucked up the time I had previously set aside for grocery shopping and preparing healthy meals. Working so much also meant I was more tired, and less inclined to climb on that elliptical machine when I finally got home at night.

But if I'm going to be honest with myself (and I must be if I hope to change this situation) the real problem for me was emotional eating. When I got out of work at 10:00 pm and I hit that drive through, instead of ordering a grilled chicken sandwich with apple slices and a diet soda, I came rolling in with the burger, the fries and the sugary soda. It was wrong and I knew it, but eating junk became an emotional reward for sucking up all the stress.

If I'm going to be even more honest with myself I have to acknowledge that the pounds that I put on weren't just an unwanted side effect of self-medicating with food, they were a deliberate defense mechanism. Well, maybe semi-deliberate, but still a defense mechanism. I was insulating myself against everyone and everything that I felt had let me down in life, including myself.

So now that I've faced the scale and my demons both, it is time to get back on the diet and exercise horse once again. I've re-upped my Weight Watchers membership. I've stocked my pantry with the right kinds of foods. I've dusted off my heart-rate-monitor and my elliptical machine.

I'm ready to do this.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

The Power of Discontent

Happiness is a choice, this I firmly believe. Things have not always gone my way in life, but I've always put my best effort into looking on the bright side. Some days are easier than others, of course, but I keep at it.

Sometimes, though, being unhappy can serve a powerful purpose in life. Nothing can propel a person to make a change quite like being miserable can. If we are honest with ourselves about why we're unhappy and what we need to do to change it, the change is usually for the better. On the other hand, when we try to ignore what is bothering us and stuff the bad feelings down, they tend to work their way out again, and usually not in a good way. If you doubt my theory just look at my neighbors. I'm pretty sure this is why the woman downstairs hoards, why the pink haired lady across the way is perpetually angry, and why the guy on the corner is drunk and semi-suicidal every weekend. It could be why I'm carrying an extra thirty or so pounds around with me, too.

For us women, when it comes to dealing with our feelings most of the time there is guilt involved. Yep, lots of us ladies feel bad about feeling bad. I think we're conditioned that way from childhood, which is kind of sad. That doesn't mean the guys are getting off easy, though. Men are taught to be stoic and hide their emotions from the time they're small. All of us, from birth onwards, are constantly being fed messages about who we should be and what we should want. Just look at all the cookie-cutter housing developments out there. And how many of us work in identical little corporate cubicles for that matter?

With so many constant reminders of why we should blend in, it can be really hard to find the inner strength to break out and do our own thing. Lots of people plod along in unhappy relationships, doing jobs they can't stand, or living in a place they really don't care for simply because they don't want to face the emotional toll that making a change would require. The longer we live like that, the more we come to believe that we couldn't make a change, even if we tried. We convince ourselves that we're just not up to it. That we aren't good enough, strong enough, smart enough, talented enough, etc.

Once in awhile life helps us out, changing the game plan without asking us if we agree first. We get laid off, we get a scary diagnosis, our spouse runs off with a younger model. Big, scary life events tend to shake things up and force us into the introspection that can help us live a more authentic life. Other times, the only force powerful enough to help us break away from those voices in our heads is simply being so unhappy with ourselves we just have to do something about it. The dieter who finally buckles down to take off the pounds, the corporate flunky who starts up a little side venture for fun, the waitress who finally gets started on that novel she's always dreamed of writing.

We've all heard the adage that says we may not always be able to control what happens to us, but we can always control how we react to it. When I was younger, I thought it meant accept it all and keep smiling, no matter what happens. Now that I'm older, I realize it is really more about embracing change than it is about sucking it up with a smile on my face. It is very freeing to finally realize the power of discontent. Instead of fighting it, I'm embracing it, learning from it, and letting it help me shape a more fulfilling future.

The next time you're stuck in a funk don't fight it. Instead, use it as an opportunity to ask yourself what your subconscious is really trying to tell you. When all is said and done it might just turn out to be an opportunity in disguise.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Chapter One - Feedback Needed

Ok, folks. Here it is, the first chapter in my YA/Tween novel. Your comments and feedback will help me improve, so please share your thoughts with me . . . (cringing slightly) . . .
Chapter One:

Ease Dropping, Spiders, and True Lies.

The setting sun slanting through the lattice trim made a checkered pattern in the dirt under the front porch. Kenny crawled commando style through the rosy half light, kicking up dust motes that coated his spiky red hair and freckled face in grime. Slowly, he made his way towards the translucent film of a large spider web clinging to the stone foundation of the house. Safely stashed in his pocket was an empty peanut butter jar with holes punched in the lid, ready and waiting to put the spiders in once he caught them.

As he inched closer, almost reaching his quarry, the the clatter of the screen door and the hollow thump of footsteps sounded on the porch above, followed by the squeak of somebody plopping themselves down on the rickety old gilder. The screen door banged shut a second time, followed by the click of high heels and the squeak of a second body easing itself into the glider.

“Ah, thank you my dear.” Kenny heard his father say in his clipped British accent. “We've broken out the Bordeaux, I see. Lovely! Perfect for enjoying the sunset.”

Kenny crept closer to the spiderweb, only half listening to his parents voices.
“The night smacks of nostalgia, Minnie, can you feel it in the air?”

“Oh Hank, it isn't like you to be so melancholy!” Kenny's mother said with a laugh, the sound of her native Brooklyn evident in her voice.

“No, I suppose it isn't.” Kenny heard the rumble of his father's chuckle. “But still, I'll miss so many things after this move. . . you know, I've been with Wickersham for more than 20 years now. Odd to think the time has gone so fast, isn't it? It's going to be very strange, having to settle into somewhere new after so long in one place.”

Kenny, who had fumbled the jar out of his pocket, and was just stretching it out towards a gloriously fat spider suspended in the center of the filmy web, stopped cold. What was that his father had just said? Something about settling somewhere new?

“You must try to think positively, Hank. You'll get used to it, you know you will. Remember when we bought this place, how all the little night noises outside and the sound of the house settling kept us awake that first night, and we wondered if we had made a mistake? It was such a big change after a studio apartment in the city. Yet we adapted, didn't we?”

“True, Minnie. Very true.” There was a loud sigh, and a sharp squeal from the springs on the glider as someone shifted their weight. “Change never used to rattle me like this. I suppose I must be getting old. It was a good run in the old place, though, wasn't it?”

“Yes it was, my gallant husband! And whatever comes next, I'm sure it will be just as wonderful. Once the move is over, that is. Here, give me your empty glass, I'll take it in with me. I promised the twins I'd read them another chapter of Charlotte's Webb before bed.”

“I think I'll come in, too. I'd like to get in a little reading before bed myself. Maybe it will help me settle my thoughts.”

The glider's springs screeched once more, followed by the clatter of the screen door.

Kenny slithered backwards out from under the porch as fast as he could go, leaving the empty peanut butter jar lying forgotten in the dirt.

The porch that flanked the big white Victorian on both sides was Kenny's favorite part of the house. As well as housing a perfect spider habitat underneath, it was also home to a jumble of bikes, big wheels, scooters, and everything else that no one knew what to do with. There was a croquette set with two missing mallets, a broken swimming pool filter, assorted garden equipment and an impressive collection of rickety lawn furniture, among other things. With an endless array of interesting objects to tinker with above, and a thriving community of spiders below, the porch was fertile ground for Kenny's eleven year old imagination.

Yet Kenny was blind to the porch and its many pleasures. He was too distracted by what he had just overheard to think of anything else. He ran around the side yard, leaped over the dusky outline of a tricycle in the dark under the big oak tree and charged across the patchy grass of the back yard to hurl himself up the wooden steps of the tree house. He pushed the trap door up and emerged into the tiny space above to find his sister, Alexa and their neighbor, Bertie, sitting with their heads close together, pouring over their ipods. The light of the single naked light bulb that hung at the end of a long orange extension cord cast a pool of light over the two fourteen year olds, making Alexa's long red hair glow halo-like next to Bertie's dark curls.

“Alexa! Alexa!” Kenny yelled, as he pulled himself the rest of the way through the trap door, which he closed with a bang. Alexa and Bertie both jumped, startled, and pulled the ear buds from their ears.

“Kenny!” Alexa shrieked. “What do you mean barging in here? You totally freaked us out! Go away!”

“Hey, Kenny.” Bertie said, with his usual sleepy-eyed grin. Tall, lanky and utterly unflappable, Bertie lived in the house directly behind the Dornfest home. His backyard ran into theirs, separated only by a bushy hedge and the thick-trunked old sycamore tree where they had their tree house. No one knew who first built the tree house, or even which family technically owned it, since the tree it was in straddled the property line. Bertie, an only child, had happily shared the tree house with the boisterous Dornfest clan for as long as they could all remember.

“Alexa, shut up! I have to tell you something! It's important!” Kenny was so flushed and anxious looking Alexa bit back what she had been going to say to make him leave. “Fine. Speak.” She said imperiously, giving Kenny a look that said this had better be worth it.

“I heard dad and mom talking, they didn't know I was under the porch!” Kenny wiped the back of his hand across the sticky dust on his forehead as a trickle of muddy sweat dripped into his eyes. “Dad said he was going to miss this house, and Mom told him not to worry, he'll like his new job once the MOVE is over. Alexa, I think we're moving!”

Alexa's mouth dropped open as her imperious glare evaporated. What? Moving? How could they be moving? She had never known any other home but this one, the big ramshackle Victorian on Tipton Street that she liked to think looked like a grand old lady, spreading her skirts in a stiff curtsy. How could her parents possibly want to leave it?

True, the house was a bit shabby and run down, and she had often heard her father grumble that it was too much to keep up with. He  was constantly starting home improvement projects that he never finished, but she had always thought that was just because he got bored with them, not because he really meant the house was too much to handle. And it was true, their mother wasn't that great at keeping up with the house work, and she, too, often vaguely complained about the house's lack of modern conveniences. The washer and drier were inconveniently located in the big kitchen, next to the bulky gas range that was so old that it had to be lit with a match. The plumbing was noisy and yes, the paint was peeling horribly on the blue shutters, a few of which were loose and hung at odd angles--But still, how could they want to move? This was their home!

A sudden thought occurred to Alexa, and she leaned over and grabbed Kenny tightly by a handful of his dust streaked tee shirt. “Kenny, if you're lying about this to be funny, I'm going to kill you! You will be D-E-A-D, dead, do you understand me?”

Kenny wrenched free with a scowl on his face. “I'm not lying Alexa! I wouldn't, not about something this important! If you don't believe me, then go ease drop on them yourself and you'll see!” Offended, Kenny jerked open the trap door and disappeared down it, muttering angrily to himself.

Alexa watched him go, then turned to look inquiringly at Bertie. Bertie just shrugged, unperturbed. “Hey, it's Kenny.” He reminded her. “It isn't like he hasn't lied before. Remember when he tried to convince us he caught a tiny UFO and had the aliens trapped in a shoe box under his bed?”

Alexa laughed and rolled her eyes in relief. Bertie was right, of course. Kenny was the king of the tall tale, how many times before had he tried to convince her of something far fetched, insisting it was real? He was, after all the, same kid who had dug up Mr. Chisholm's rhubarb plot, claiming there was buried treasurer hidden beneath it. And, she reminded herself, it had been Kenny who claimed he had found the winning lottery ticket in the gutter last fall, too. She had allowed him to suck her into both of those incidents, with disastrous consequences. No, not this time, she resolved. She wasn't going to fall for it again. Just the same, something about Kenny's expression when he burst into the tree house stuck in her mind.

Over the next couple of days Alexa found herself looking for reasons to hover at the edges of her parents conversations. On Friday night as they sat at the kitchen table, sipping their after-dinner decaf, she busied herself with watering the bushy spider plants and ferns that nearly covered the kitchen windows. She overheard nothing other than a discussion about her father's acid reflux for her pains. On Saturday, as her parents settled down in the living room for the evening, she crawled along the floor shining a flashlight into the heat registers, pretending to look for her communion ring that Martie Ruth had dropped down the grate months ago. Unfortunately, the most exciting thing she discovered was that her mother was particularly good at guessing the answers on Wheel of Fortune.

By the time Alexa woke up on Monday morning, she was finally well and truly convinced that Kenny's tale was just another of his imaginative fabrications. Summer vacation was winding down, with barely a week and a half to go before school started. As she stretched lazily, reveling in the slanting rays of the mid-morning sun like a cat, she once again resolved that she wasn't going to waste any more precious vacation time brooding over Kenny's nonsense. After texting Bertie, and her best friend, Jenna, to make sure she hadn't missed anything exciting by sleeping late, she made her way down the back staircase to the kitchen for breakfast.

The back wall of the big, bright kitchen was lined with tall Victorian windows nearly covered by a profusion of potted plants in macramé hangers. The sun shining in through the leaves of the plants gave the kitchen a cool, forest-like feeling that Alexa loved. The kitchen was also Mrs. Dornfest's preferred work space. A freelance grant writer, she often worked from home and most mornings could be found at the big round kitchen table, usually tapping away on her laptop with a mess of papers spread out all around her. This morning, to Alexa's surprise, it was her father who was seated at the table. Still wearing his dressing gown, he was trying to read the paper while convincing eleven month old Luke, the youngest Dornfest, to eat his oatmeal. 

“Good morning, Alexa, love. No Luke, we don't throw our oatmeal, we eat it. Open up son, there's a good boy.”

Alexa frowned as she collected her favorite cereal from the pantry and milk from the fridge. “Dad, aren't you going to be late for work? Where's Mom?”

“Luke, no, no. Give me the spoon, son. Ah, what was that Alexa? Work? No, no work for me for a bit. You're going to be stuck with me, I'm afraid. Your mother will be be working outside of the house for awhile, didn't she tell you?”

Alexa plunked her cereal bowl down on the table and generously sprinkled sugar over the flakes floating in the bowl. “No, she didn't mention it.” She mumbled through a mouthful of cereal just as her younger siblings, eight year old twins Martie Ruth and Toby, came barreling into the kitchen from the backyard. 

“Daddy, daddy!” Martie Ruth shrieked, her red ponytail bobbing in a long curlicue down her back. “Make Kenny leave us alone! He's scaring us!” She threw herself against her father and buried her head under his arm, causing him to spill the oatmeal he was about to feed Luke down his sleeve.

“Yeah! Kenny's being mean, Daddy.” Toby pouted, his freckled face flushed from running. “He has a jar full of spiders, he keeps chasing us with them. Make him stop!”

Mr. Dornfest detangled himself from Martie Ruth's embrace and dabbed at the oatmeal on his sleeve with a paper napkin. “Alexa, would you call Kenny in here, please?”

“With pleasure!” Alexa swished past her younger siblings and threw the back door open. Kenny was nowhere to be seen. “KENNY, DAD SAYS GET IN HERE!” She bellowed. “RIGHT NOW!”

When Kenny did not appear Mr. Dornfest took his glasses off and polished them with the edge of his bathrobe, something he usually did when trying to remain calm. “Twins, go upstairs and wash up.  Your mother said I'm supposed to take you and Luke to the library for story time today. We've got to get moving if we don't want to miss it.” As the twins clattered up the stairs he stood up and lifted Luke out of the high chair. “Alexa, when your brother shows up please tell him I'll deal with him later. And tell him he had better not let any of those spiders of his loose in the house, either.”

Alexa shuddered. “Ew! He better not!” Now that the kitchen was empty Alexa sat back down to finish eating her cereal in peace. She liked having a big family, but sometimes it was nice to have some quiet alone time, too. She reached for the newspaper her father had been reading, intending to hunt through it for the entertainment section. But as she picked it up the page it was folded open to caught her eye. The title of the article read “Steps to Avoid Foreclosure.”

Alexa dropped her spoon with a clatter, her appetite suddenly gone. She stared at the newspaper article without seeing it, as all of a sudden the morning's events lined up in her mind's eye. Her father not going to work. Her mother suddenly having to get a job outside the home. Now this article? It all added up.

Kenny was right!

Friday, October 7, 2011

The Kaleidoscope Keeps Turning

Over the past month I have thrown myself into writing in a big way. I wrangle the blog several times a week and I try to spend some time every day writing creatively. I've written a few short stories and have completed the outline for a novel. A friend and I will also be collaborating together on another novel for NaNoWriMo, which is the acronym for National Novel Writing Month. The goal there is to write a novel of no fewer than 50,000 words in thirty days. I don't know if we will pull it off, but it sure will be fun to try.

Back in high school we had our marble note books and a number two pencil and that was it, we were writers. Today, in the era of technological everything, I've still got my trusty-dusty pen and paper, but I also need to worry about a blog, business cards, a website, and a Facebook page (which, sadly, only 3 people like so far). This collection of stuff is called a "platform," which is apparently necessary if you ever expect to get published. Or so I've been told, anyway.

Organizing all this stuff has kept me very busy, but I try not to let it distract me from spending time doing the most important thing, writing. I'm starting to see potential story ideas everywhere I look. The possibilities are like kaleidoscope images, constantly shifting and changing as all the pieces of where I've been and what I've done in life tumble around together in my subconscious. The more time I spend writing, the more comfortable I become with it. I'm finding it is like riding a bike or roller skating, you never really forget how to do it, even though it might take some time to get good at it again.

OK, it is time to check "update blog" off the 'ol to-do list. Now, I am off to finish a first draft of the first chapter of my novel. Look for it here on the blog sometime this weekend.

Tools of the Trade


My Writing Space

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

The Scales of Justice

Yesterday was a day rife with legal entanglements. Evan had traffic court, I was planning to go to Town Hall to see what they would decide on some historic buildings here, and it was the day that a ruling in the Amanda Knox case was expected.

Evan's legal drama has been dragging on for months and months. During the first six months of having his license to drive he managed to have two accidents and earn himself no fewer than twelve tickets. Having gotten himself into the mess without help, he's been determined to clean it up by himself, too. He has quickly learned that getting into legal trouble is much easier than getting out of it again. The last time he went to court for this particular ticket, for example, he couldn't seem to attract the judge's attention. When they called for traffic violators who wanted to plead guilty, he raised his hand over and over, but was passed up each time. Finally, when he was the last person left in the room, the judge told him there was no time left and he would have to come back another day.

Last night he wore a bright red shirt, sat as close to the front row as he could get, and practically threw himself bodily in the air when they called for traffic violators. It must have worked, because court started at 7:00 and he was home again by 8:30. Yet the saga continues. We no longer own the car, so now it seems he needs to go back to court again, this time with a letter written by our insurance company verifying that we had coverage on our former vehicle on the date in question.  We can only hope that will be the end of it, but we really don't know.

As for me, I never made it to Town Hall last night. I got a phone call from a former client from the non-profit. He called me because he had received a letter saying that the person who assaulted him has been released with a much lighter sentence than what he had been told to expect. Since the man has threatened him repeatedly, he was very upset and worried. There wasn't much I could do for him, other than sit and listen to his concerns and assure him I'd put him in touch with the attorneys in the legal program in the morning. I don't have all the facts yet, but on the face of it, it seems that the system has failed him.

When I finally got home, I saw on the news that Amanda Knox had been freed and is already on her way home to Seattle. I hope this closes the book on this chapter in her life, but I rather doubt it. Like my client, I expect in the back of her mind she'll still always be waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I can certainly see why they say Justice is blind, but sometimes I suspect she can see just fine and likes to play favorites. Other times, I'm not sure sure she's even in the room.

I never did find out what happened at Borough Hall last night. I think I might need a second cup of coffee before I dare look into it.